3 years of motherhood

"Enjoy the phase kiran, they grow so fast" is the only sentence that i heard the most whenever i used to crib and complain while raising jai.

Ofcourse those constant feedings (that too for 2.5 years), frequent susu pottu cleanings and the most painstaking thing of all -To make him eat.. aah! I used to get mad and think when will he grow.

But then moments when he cuddles, when he speaks, when he make me go all over knees to kiss, his constant imitations, his innocence are all the things that make me feel..aww i never want my baby to grow..

So this is how we mothers generally are, we want our child to grow fast yet stay babylike..

But as Jai completes 3 today , my heart sinks to even think that this little monster of mine is stepping into a new world now...a world where apart from me, he will have schoolfriends, fav teachers in his life too....till today he was all mine, a protected baby in the family but now on he will have an independent life,his love and time will be divided now between school and family. He will be away from my eyes for full 4-5 hours.

I feel nervous to think of it yet i want you to grow, go and take part in everything that this life has to offer you my baby.

You are such a bundle of joy for all of us..you are an amamzing baby who makes me feel proud on almost everything you do, you are my celebrity as your videos sometimes amazes me too...you are such an intelligent boy yet so kind in your heart.You are clever yet you know where fo say sorry.you are a blessing to all of us.

May you grow up as kind and loving as you are handsome. The best day of my life was when you decided to pop into it. You have brought nothing but joy and happiness into my life since you were born.

I really wish you remember all the things that i will never forget.

In the end i just want to tell you

You are my darling, my smile
my love, my frown
My strength, my weakness
You are my everything, you are my son.
Happy 3rd birthday my jaan :* 

Two years of motherhood

Dear Jaivardhan,

Just in few hours from now, you will turn two, I thought your first birthday came fast, but you’re second? That arrived at a more lightning speed.

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As you turn 2 today, I can recall each and every moment of yours in this whole year, right from your first independent walking to your first forming of sentences, your imitations to your rhymes, your love for my lipsticks to your compliments every time I get ready, I remember each moment so clearly.

You had such a fabulous year with so much energy, love and excitement. We thoroughly enjoy every moment of you growing. You are such an affectionate child my love, your sweet talks to your gesture toward everyone you meet, your interest in pooja to your passion for drill machines, we have seen so much of you in this year and may you keep growing the way you are doing. You have teeth now! You talk and walk and eat all by yourself. You know your own name and have proven every hour of every day that you know mine and rest of the family members too.

Next year is going to be a very exciting as well as a bit challenging for you,from the cozy and protected lap of your grandparents and chachu you will be stepping out with your parents in a totally different environment. I know you will miss their presence but then finally after two years ,your father will get to see you every day, you will sleep and wake up next to both your parents which will be really special for both of us.

This year will also start your pre schooling phase and I am so eagerly waiting to see you in uniform… each milestone of you is like a dream coming true for us.

You are becoming so much more independent now and while I am so proud of you, it makes me sad to think that you need me a little less each day. But then I realize that you just need me in different ways.

Instead of needing me to carry you as we walk around, you need me to hold your hand as you walk beside me. Instead of needing me to pat you to sleep, you need me to tell you stories. Instead of needing me to tell you what we are doing, you need me to give you choices as you learn and grow.

My sweet little gutkulu, two years old you are today and before we know it you’ll be three, then four… you grow so quickly sometimes it feels like I can’t keep up. Then you grab my face in your little hands and give me a kiss, you wrap your little arms around me and say ‘jai ki muma bahut pyari hai “and the whole world slows down.

I feel privileged to be your mumma. As you journey into the next year—which I’m sure will be the tremendous twos, with some terrible thrown in for good measure—I’m filled with anticipation to watch you become more and more uniquely you. My heart will be right there, growing alongside you, my love spreading to cover every new inch of you.

So Happy Birthday, my little man. Grow, play and have fun and always know, jai ki muma loves jai a lot ,lot & lot.

Stay happy, healthy and blessed J

Love

Mumma

my baby has turned one

Dear Jaivardhan,

Everyone waited for the time when clock turned to 12pm yesterday as they were eager to welcome new year but I am here thinking about the time and feeling I had last year on this same day,,That night of 31^st December still give me goosebumps .

I was thrilled as well as as nervous, while that dying pain was taking over all my body but your first look was all in my mind….the moment I delivered you, I felt something so integral came out of me ….i felt so incomplete in body but so full in my arms because all that struggle of nine months resulted in beautiful you. That feeling of holding you in my arms while sleeping next to you, letting you suck my milk can never be described in words.

 Jaivardhan, what a precious bundle of joy you are. Cute from head to toe! You were our new year gift, descended from heaven above, the most perfect little angel.

World says that I gave you birth but actually you gave birth to a mother. You taught me how to care for someone more than I do for my own self, to fear the little things in life and cherish every moment that we share. I have seen you struggle to roll over and finally get it right,  I have learned how to travel with a heavy stroller and how to stay up late night, sometimes the whole night.

As you have turned one today, I want to tell you how blessed we are to witness all your firsts, be it sitting to crawling to walking, your first festivals, your first activities, we captured them all.

I remember the Day you first smiled at me. The day you started crawling. And now watch as you embark on talking and walking – huge milestones! Of course, there has been so much in between. It’s amazing what you have accomplished in your first year.

Holding you in my arms is still one of my favorite things to do, one year later. I can’t believe it’s been one year! I barely remember you that tiny – so cute and kissable right from the start. You were born with a need to see and to do – a curious and social nature, at heart. You have spent your year exploring your world in new and amazing ways.

My days now are filled with your infectious laughter and your cooing cuddles – nothing is more amazing to me than for you to crawl over, gently lean in to bump heads and cuddle, making your happy coo sounds. I love you every minute of every day.

Jai  your papa was not there with me when I delivered you but only I know his pain of not being there to welcome you in this world. He loves you the most and I want you to know that You have brought our family together in ways you’ll never fully realize. You made us Mumma  and papa, and brought together a wide family of support. You are loved beyond measure.

Dear Baby, you are so tiny to read or even understand what I am writing now but  I have decided to pen down a blog on your every birthday to remind you of your and others goodness in your life so that when you read them later in life you feel happy of yourself and your relationships.

You are so blessed to grow up in the lovely n protective company of your dada dadi n chachu…These days very few kids of your age get this opportunity to live with their grandparents and I am happy that me and your papa made it possible for you to live with your grandparents as it will imbibe certain traits in you which we as a parents can never imbibe.

Jai you have brought so much happiness in our world. I love you much more than even I can imagine myself . God bless you my baby. May you grow up as a wonderful human being and a responsible citizen of this nation. God bless you with good health and happiness.

Mumma papa loves you lot. Happy first birthday my new year baby. 

CHENNAI - YOU INSPIRED US

The city of Chennai and many parts of Tamil Nadu have received some record breaking rain since a couple of weeks which resulted in flood situation in Chennai, thousands of people got strucked in their homes /airports, railiway stations but while our politicians were raging their voice over nonsense topics like intolerance in parliament, chennaites were showing their tolerance by coming together in the hour of need.

 I am so proud when I wrote this that while there is so much hype over hindu muslim intolerance towards each other in media, there was a student there in chennai named Younus who rescued a Hindu woman, who was suffering from labour pain at the time, from a dangerously stranded place and moved her to a safer place. He set an excellent example of humanity when he took part in rescue operations and saved many stranded people.

While the heavy rains in Chennai and other parts of Tamil Nadu created huge devastation, it also brought people of different caste, creed and religion together. It feels so great to read about thousands of such heroes who came together in this hour of need. I didn’t saw any chennaite blaming any political party at this moment coz they are busy in helping each other. This is what Chennai taught us…They took actively part in rescuing themselves,, they didn’t waited for help but took part in helping other.

Chennai floods showed that there is Tolerance among Indians and we are united……..no matter how much our political parties try to divide us for their own political interests but we Indians are together. It’s a slap on all those who tried to divide us in the name of intolerance. Pics of Art of living workers, RSS activists, Muslims cooking foods in temples and Hindus being sheltered in Mosque are some examples that shows that humanity is above any religion caste or creed and we Indians live proudly under it.
 

I salute these people who are helping in making Chennai to revive its old charm. I am deeply touched by Sex workers from Maharashtra’s who dipped into their savings and survived on just one meal a day to collect Rs 1 lakh, that was donated by them today towards relief work in rain-ravaged Chennai.

I am equally happy to read that financial institutions, banks waived penalty on late EMI payments.Ministry of external affairs too announced if someone’s passport is lost or damaged in floods, PSK chennai will issue u fresh passport free of charge.

 

All these efforts show that we all are together and no one can ever break us in the name of our religion and caste. 

I also salute Indian Defense forces who always act as god sent angels in such disastrous situations. Bravo and kudos to them.

Stay Strong Chennai. You will be back to normal soon. Hats off to you and your fighting spirit. You have united Indians and also sent a strong message that we are together and Life is not just about earning money, its about living together and helping each other.

 

God bless all.

Scrap the current reservation policy and then claim yourself to be secular

As I woke up today, the first thing that I saw on TV was the agitation in Gujarat over Patel’s demand for reservation. The outrage of people went on to streets and they destroyed the government property everywhere. I have always expected such an outrage by the general category. I feel  fear in saying that what these patels are doing in Gujarat can turn into a nationwide agitation if current reservation policies didn’t changed.

I found it ironical that even after 69 years of independence , This nation which claims itself to be secular, gives reservations on the basis of someone’s caste , creed and religion. I understand the fact that earlier during post independence, there was a huge gap between people of different castes and it was mandatory then to bridge this gap and make everyone equal but unfortunately during all these years this whole reservation policy became the most fav vote gimmick for our politicians and they used it for their political interests.

Our politicians used these poor people in the name of reservations for the vote bank.  This is just because of this politics that now almost every caste and tribe demands reservation for them and their leader becomes the face of that particular tribe which comes in poltics and then all this process of using people's emotions comes and take the shape of a new caste based party.  Unfortunately the good idea behind starting these reservations once is lost now, it was meant to make people equal but now this reservation is actually dividing people. Almost everyday someone is coming up demanding separate reservations for their community which is dangerous for any democratic nation.

I have always believed in equality and I admire the reservation system then in 1960’s when it helped poor people to come up and live their life with dignity but now its working anti democratic which  is destructive for this nation hence I believe it’s high time that Reservations should be banned in this nation and if possible it should be given only  on the basis of someone’s economical condition not on their caste, religion or creed.Only then this continuous demand for reservations will come to end.

I know it’s difficult for any govt to take this move because as I said it earlier that its almost every party ‘vote bank card but believe me for national interest one has to take such strong decisions and I expect such move by present Modi Government.

What Patels are doing in gujrat is a very expected move. I always had this in mind that there will come a time when even general category people will demand reservation and see the time comes. It can take a very destructive mode if didn’t tackled properly hence  I request each political party to reexamine the current reservation policy and stop this reservation venom spreading in the whole country.

Equality brings unity so please stop dividing people in the name of reservations now. India doesn’t need any special reservation for any community now.

Time to discard all the rotten policies and bring the change.

Regards

Kiran Bhardwaj

"Instead of banning the Documentry, Ban movies which portrays women as a thing to be used"

As I was watching the  BBC documentary , anger, frustration , retaliation n so many more emotions were coming out fiercely…..How the hell , men in our society be so so narrow minded……..at this era of modernization and education,,,listening to people, that too advocates on women was heart wrenching…I Can understand the rotten mentality of Mukesh, The victim who executed this rape  but what outraged me is the statement of M.L. Sharma, the defense lawyer for the rapists, who said “"A girl is just like a flower. It gives a good looking, very softness... performance, pleasant . On the other hand a man is just like a thorn. Strong, tough enough. That flower always needs protection. If you put that flower in a gutter it is spoilt. If you put it in the temple, it is worshiped," 

Is he serious?  stupid fellow, a lawyer by profession, how the hell can such person be a lawyer, do u think he can ever bring justice to anyone??

He also says at one point in the documentary, "India has the best culture. No place for a woman in our culture.

It’s outrageous and I don’t know how this bloody fellow must be treating his wife, sister, daughter & mother in home…….

I believe BBC Documentary is a mirror to our society and I strongly feel it should not be banned by the government,,,,, there are people in our nation who still lives with this mentality and hence instead of escaping we should accept it courageously & work for changing this mindset……there is nothing about banning it……I would urge to everyone watch it……you need to know about it is -- you need to see it. The content does not incite. It serves as a mirror as well as a looking glass. To see in great detail what happened on the night of December 16, 2012.

Infact I would say our government officials too should see it,  at least they will get an idea where to start work from,,,,,its all about mentality  …….instead of banning this real documentary , we should ban all such movies where women are shown like puppets and an object  to be used.

We need to make understand our people that a girl is as much human as these men are, women are not a thing to be used or to be portrayed as a ornament..women is an individual who deserves everything and can do anything,,,,,parents should start teaching their kids right from birth that girls and boys are two different human beings but possesses the same quality , be it their powers or their rights. Both play an important role in life and hence both should always care and respect each other.

I must say each one of you should see it to understand what it means for you as an individual and for the country as a collective. I implore you to see it and decide for yourself how you feel about it.

https://vimeo.com/121462171#embed

May god give us wisdom to understand and strength to fight for our rights.

Kiran

Dying humanity- please save it

When Schools becomes bloodied & Battlegrounds, you should know that your "civilization" has ended. Its over. Rest is only Dust in air.

It’s just all dust everywhere, from yesterday’s Sydney siege to today’s Peshawar killings. My heart sank as I think of tomorrow. What the hell is going on in this world? Terrorism was always there in world and we Indians were their favorite targets but in the last few months the pace with which this word terrorism has expanded in the whole world, it’s ironic and shocking. 

What the purpose of UNO, G8, G-20, SAARC, EU if we together can’t combat this terror blood shell. Every time something like this happens, we cry, show our outrage, and then move on, but after today’s innocent toddler’s killings that too 104 till now, are we able to sleep tonight? Where’s the future? My heart just sank into my stomach. Everything their parents did to raise them over 15 years was taken away in 15mins. 

Don’t know what their ideology is and which god they worship but as far as I am aware there is no such religion in the world and no such god who supports killing. Taliban – you are a clan of cowards. Bloody sick people. I wish your body don’t even get burial after u die. Never seen such bastards as you people are .

The biggest threat to humanity isn't nuclear weaponry. It's religious fundamentalism. And it’s my appeal to the world leaders. Kindly wake up! Don’t run after these nuclear weapons and moon, kindly kill this terror that has killed humanity.

126 is the figure that officials in Pakistan claiming to be dead in today’s attack in army school, Peshawar. Don’t know how long I will believe it but today at this moment, it feels like “There is no god”. How can he see such killings? 110 little kids, killed while studying. What kind of a religion encourages killing of small kids? What do they want to prove killing innocents? 

World has seen a lot of bloodshed now, kindly stop this bullshit. I urge People in power , kindly be together at this moment and remove these bastards who call themselves JEHADI. HUMANITY IS DYING ,PLEASE SAVE IT!

Rest in peace kids! For all of you who died today, I can just say that Heaven will be much safer for you than this bloody world……

Profound grief, deathly silence !